An Actor's Story

Daily happenings in the life of an American actress, screenwriter and filmmaker. Auditions, bookings, travels, and tales.

Flaws are perfect!

Now that photoshop (and tons of apps that use photoshop attributes) are so readily available to us we are taking the opportunity to make our social media pics look perfect………no correction…….better than perfect.  I watched a lot of my friends using such apps while we are out and about at clubs, events, street fairs, etc.  When I looked at the finished pics I was kicking myself that I didn’t find out about these apps sooner.  Now I was stuck with tons of photos on Facebook that were untouched, therefore in my mind, I wasn’t looking as good as I possibly could.  Especially since I am an actress.  I need to look my best at all times right?  

Well, I have actually had second thoughts about all of this.  As I watch woman after woman wipe out every single thing on their face until it is smooth, adding lipstick and eyelashes, and changing skin tone…….one starts to wonder when will this stop?  I recently attended a Hollywood party and there was a photographer who was snapping pics at a rapid pace.  No time to make sure every hair was in place, gut sucked in, no time to strike a flattering pose.   This guy didn’t care.  He just snapped away.  Yesterday he e-mailed me with a link to the photo gallery of the event and to my surprise I loved most of the shots of me.  They looked very natural and it looked like I was having a great time.  I bought two of them.  One was a headshot, extreme closeup, and I liked it.  After I downloaded it and saw the full effect (lines around my eyes, my lips not perfectly smooth, my skin tone uneven,) my first thought was that I could put this through an app and make it look stunning.  But…….I took a chance and posted it on Facebook and Twitter completely untouched.  Flaws and all.  I just put it up there and let it be.  I ended up completely forgetting about it but to my surprise it caused me to receive a record number of private Facebook messages.  67 in all.  67 men felt compelled to send me a message to let me know that I am sexy, gorgeous, pretty, beautiful, elegant, classy, desirable………I forgot all of the words, but I have to admit I’m a bit shocked.  But very happy.  Just proof positive that they didn’t even see the flaws.  They saw a confident happy woman who they wanted to reach out to and associate with.  Yes…….flaws are the best part people! ;)

One Last Hug

It started out innocently enough.  After a crazy mixed up day, over scheduled, many things going wrong……at the end of the day I decided to watch HBO before going to bed.  I was going to watch old episodes of “Entourage” but I accidentally clicked on “Camp Erin - One Last Hug.”  It had already started so I didn’t click it off…..I decided to give it a few minutes.  It is a documentary on a grief camp for children called Camp Erin.  It is located in Los Angeles.  Watching each little kid get up in front of a group of people to talk about losing parents, siblings, etc……wow……it was very hard to watch.  

Personally, I have lost so many people.  Does it ever get easy to talk about those losses?  No, it doesn’t.  I am shocked to see tiny kids speak openly about losing their parents.  It took me years to be able to talk about losing my Dad, Aunt, Uncles, friends, and the 7 babies I lost in miscarriages,( I lost all the babies in my fourth month of pregnancy and we could never figure out why I lost them.)   Then Sarah.  When all of these kids in the movie tell their story, describe their loss…….or don’t describe it because they don’t have the strength…….I can’t stop watching…….but I want to stop……it hurts too much.  

Lake Tahoe - my birthday party is booked!! Yay!! Just got off the phone with Montbleu Casino and Spa!! That’s where we will stay for my birthday. 3 amazing days.  It’s too cold to stay at my cabin right now and Montbleu always lets me stay there for free so why not live in luxury?Everyone is really looking forward to it. Now I just need to book Max in his doggie hotel. Lol.
UPDATE:  
They let me stay for free cuz I bring tons of people thru the casino (who spend money. lol)  They track my activity (which is a little weird but they do that to everyone that spends a lot of time there,) and they are convinced that me and my friends bring a lot of action to the casino floor which translates to “dollars.”  haha.  IDK……I don’t question the algorithms.  I just accept the freebees.  They know I’m a local property owner, but they still give me free rooms, cash, and dinners.  Go figure!!
And God helps you keep the people that matter. ;)  You mean so much to me!!

And God helps you keep the people that matter. ;)  You mean so much to me!!

Out the door!!  Oh Yeah!!!


bathtubradio:

HTS Elite mid flight
I love you so much baby.  Can’t wait until you are back from Portland.  Smooch!!!  lol  ;)

fallingrosesromance:

More Romance
As a mentor to several young people, from time to time I feel the obligation and need to tell or remind them of a few important things.  In my “acting” life I am often exposed to unattractive behavior and I feel the need to warn my men-tees.  I trust that they are intelligent kids, but you just never know what will catch their eye, intrigue them, cause them to lose sight of what is important.  Trust me, I speak from experience.  I hate sounding like a “mom,” but at the risk of sounding like I’m a parent I will go out on a limb here and say……….if something doesn’t feel right………it isn’t.  If you are tempted to cheat on your taxes……….don’t.  If you are thinking about embellishing on your resume……don’t.  If you are thinking about adding numbers where they truly don’t deserve to be added (fake Twitter or IMDB stuff,)………don’t. If you are lacking new credits…….don’t recount over and over again old credits.  And last but not least……don’t look to social media for comfort and recognition.  Stay humble, genuine, and content.  True, meaningful, and valuable recognition will find you.  Trust me. :) 
I asked him to send me a picture of himself that he told me about.  He had forgotten so I had to remind him.  He sent it and I loved it.  He looked so adorable and as always it made me love him more.  Then he sent me a surprise one that I wasn’t expecting, followed by another one a few hours later.  So now I had three new pictures to adore.  And adore I did.  He is soooo handsome and his smile is so sexy.  I looked at those pictures for hours………and fell asleep with a sweet smile. ;)

silly-luv:

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I’m still looking for a rap song for the beginning of my short film.  I’ve got an awesome song for the closing credits.  I will probably have that same musician do some kind of music throughout the film, but I do want to start out with rap.  Regarding this Tupac star….I don’t remember ever seeing this in all the times I’ve walked up and down Hollywood Blvd.  So funny that he went to high school in Marin County.  lol  Not too far from where my sweetie lives (but worlds apart. haha.)
IMDBpro has a new “casting notices” area and I just recently started to submit myself for various projects.  So far I have gotten three auditions. One was for a voice over role for a feature film.  I recorded my audition at home and submitted it but never heard back after they said they received it.  The other audition I couldn’t make, and the last one I went on in Hollywood on Friday.  The producer called me this morning to say I booked the part.  Yay!!  It is a short film, horror/thriller genre, period piece (1960’s) and I will have special effects makeup applied.  It should be so fun to shoot.  I can’t wait.
This morning I recorded ADR looping at a sound studio in Santa Monica.  The people involved are fantastic.  It was very fun.  I haven’t done much looping and I would love to get good at it.  It is definitely an “art.”  The producer and sound engineer were extremely patient and we ended up getting some great takes for the client.  I can’t wait to share the finished project here on Tumblr, which should be in a couple of weeks.  
Today I was thinking about my sweetie and his son.  They are on a trip together for spring break.  His son is only 8 years old so these are definitely the precious years.  I remember those years so well with my own kids.  It made me miss my own son.  Since he no longer lives with me I never how long we will go without seeing each other.  Usually not more than a week, but sometimes a week is too long. lol  Anyway, just after I was thinking about him and missing him so much he text me telling me about last night’s Game of Thrones episode.  We both missed it but heard amazing things about it so we agreed to meet up at my house for dinner and Game of Thrones.  That is the beauty of raising amazing kids.  You will want to spend time with them when they are adults.  Good food, good drink…….and excellent TV.  lol  This episode was epic.  And even more enjoyable with the perfect son!!  :)

I’m still looking for a rap song for the beginning of my short film.  I’ve got an awesome song for the closing credits.  I will probably have that same musician do some kind of music throughout the film, but I do want to start out with rap.  Regarding this Tupac star….I don’t remember ever seeing this in all the times I’ve walked up and down Hollywood Blvd.  So funny that he went to high school in Marin County.  lol  Not too far from where my sweetie lives (but worlds apart. haha.)

IMDBpro has a new “casting notices” area and I just recently started to submit myself for various projects.  So far I have gotten three auditions. One was for a voice over role for a feature film.  I recorded my audition at home and submitted it but never heard back after they said they received it.  The other audition I couldn’t make, and the last one I went on in Hollywood on Friday.  The producer called me this morning to say I booked the part.  Yay!!  It is a short film, horror/thriller genre, period piece (1960’s) and I will have special effects makeup applied.  It should be so fun to shoot.  I can’t wait.

This morning I recorded ADR looping at a sound studio in Santa Monica.  The people involved are fantastic.  It was very fun.  I haven’t done much looping and I would love to get good at it.  It is definitely an “art.”  The producer and sound engineer were extremely patient and we ended up getting some great takes for the client.  I can’t wait to share the finished project here on Tumblr, which should be in a couple of weeks.  

Today I was thinking about my sweetie and his son.  They are on a trip together for spring break.  His son is only 8 years old so these are definitely the precious years.  I remember those years so well with my own kids.  It made me miss my own son.  Since he no longer lives with me I never how long we will go without seeing each other.  Usually not more than a week, but sometimes a week is too long. lol  Anyway, just after I was thinking about him and missing him so much he text me telling me about last night’s Game of Thrones episode.  We both missed it but heard amazing things about it so we agreed to meet up at my house for dinner and Game of Thrones.  That is the beauty of raising amazing kids.  You will want to spend time with them when they are adults.  Good food, good drink…….and excellent TV.  lol  This episode was epic.  And even more enjoyable with the perfect son!!  :)

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