An Actor's Story

Daily happenings in the life of an American actress, screenwriter and filmmaker. Auditions, bookings, travels, and tales.

Hmmmm……..definitely something to think about.  Can’t make time for me, can’t make plans with me……….but can’t let go of me?  Do you just want me to understand you and not love you?  Is “love” too much for you?  I think sometimes people have a hard time understanding that relationships are a shared process.  If one person is doing all the work (planning, traveling, changing their schedule around, waiting in the wings,) then it isn’t a relationship.  It’s a sickness.  And I’m begging to be cured.

whiskeyandmisanthropy:

Perhaps.

I hate when you know a friendship is on it’s way out and you don’t know whether to try and salvage it or just cut your losses.

(Source: thedankerdino)

Lucky Penny Trailer - a film by Jan Haley-Soule

I wrote this screenplay for Sarah. After she passed away I shelved it. I just recently started working on it again and decided to actually make it. It is a super dark comedy about 25 minutes long. I’ve cast several young actors I met here on Tumblr. It will be so fun to work with them on this project. I have a lot of work to do to get this up on a crowd funding site. Plus I need to hire a line producer, director, and much more. But……it’s all good. lol

(Source: youtube.com)

I’ve done a pretty good job of keeping supportive people who love me near by.  It is so important to have those people in your life, especially if you are in the arts.  Our lives and job opportunities are so unpredictable and inconsistent.  Therefore we need people who are predictable (to a certain extent.)  We need people who believe in us, who support us, and who love us to the core.  
I get to see him on Wednesday!!!  
So busy helping my friend out with accounting work.  I know!!  Sounds odd for an actress but believe me the money is going to help out immensely with tons of things in my life.  Mostly to help fund my movie, pay for a trip to Disneyland in two weeks, more time in Tahoe in a week and a half, and then Mexico in October.  Not to mention back to Disneyland over New Year’s Eve, and a few snowboarding trips around the holidays.  Tons of fun stuff on the calendar and of course it all requires tons of money.  But this little job came in at just the right time.  I’m actually loving it.  In addition, so much in acting work is on the horizon.  I can’t believe the e-mails that are coming thru.  In constant talks with the celebrity photographer in LA.   (This is going to be great!)  Last night my son sent me his first version of our movie trailer.  It was GREAT!  There was just one technical issue and I wanted one edit but we are soooo close.  Tomorrow is his birthday and he took the day off of work.  We are going to Marin County in the morning for breakfast with my daughter, then back to our side of the bay for a matinee of the movie Chef.  We wanted to see the movie so bad in Tahoe and it was gone by the time we got there.  Luckily it is still playing in Berkeley.  Then we are hanging out at my house until friends and family come over for gifts and then we will all go to an amazing Thai restaurant for dinner.  During our downtime tomorrow we will probably work on the trailer.  
Last night before I fell asleep I felt like my breath had been taken away (in a good way.)  I had butterflies in my stomach and I had that feeling that something amazing was going to happen.  And then I saw an e-mail from my sweetie.  His e-mails always light up my life. :) I truly have been consumed with the overall “feeling” that the stars have finally aligned perfectly.  I am filled with belief, and the knowledge that what I am doing right here, right now, is exactly what I need to be doing.  Everything I have asked for is here……..just waiting for me to open the door.  And………I am extremely grateful.  Estoy muy feliz!!!   

So busy helping my friend out with accounting work.  I know!!  Sounds odd for an actress but believe me the money is going to help out immensely with tons of things in my life.  Mostly to help fund my movie, pay for a trip to Disneyland in two weeks, more time in Tahoe in a week and a half, and then Mexico in October.  Not to mention back to Disneyland over New Year’s Eve, and a few snowboarding trips around the holidays.  Tons of fun stuff on the calendar and of course it all requires tons of money.  But this little job came in at just the right time.  I’m actually loving it.  In addition, so much in acting work is on the horizon.  I can’t believe the e-mails that are coming thru.  In constant talks with the celebrity photographer in LA.   (This is going to be great!)  Last night my son sent me his first version of our movie trailer.  It was GREAT!  There was just one technical issue and I wanted one edit but we are soooo close.  Tomorrow is his birthday and he took the day off of work.  We are going to Marin County in the morning for breakfast with my daughter, then back to our side of the bay for a matinee of the movie Chef.  We wanted to see the movie so bad in Tahoe and it was gone by the time we got there.  Luckily it is still playing in Berkeley.  Then we are hanging out at my house until friends and family come over for gifts and then we will all go to an amazing Thai restaurant for dinner.  During our downtime tomorrow we will probably work on the trailer.  

Last night before I fell asleep I felt like my breath had been taken away (in a good way.)  I had butterflies in my stomach and I had that feeling that something amazing was going to happen.  And then I saw an e-mail from my sweetie.  His e-mails always light up my life. :) I truly have been consumed with the overall “feeling” that the stars have finally aligned perfectly.  I am filled with belief, and the knowledge that what I am doing right here, right now, is exactly what I need to be doing.  Everything I have asked for is here……..just waiting for me to open the door.  And………I am extremely grateful.  Estoy muy feliz!!!   

I was so busy all day but finally read thru all of my e-mails and texts.  Tons going on the next few weeks.  Meetings, auditions, and filmings……oh my.  But the most exciting thing of all is that I get to shoot with a celebrity photographer.  For some reason after looking at the photographer’s website (and looking at the famous people,) I truly felt that something wonderful is about to happen.  Exotic, beautiful, interesting, captivating, sexy……….the e-mail contained all of these adjectives.  I’m looking forward to all of the lunches, dinners, and drinks set up for the week.  I’m so glad I was busy all day.  Everyone else took care of the week for me. lol  Smooch!
Half way thru summer. There’s still time to make this the best one ever!! #summer

After a very stressful weekend (with one fun party thrown in for good measure,) I am completely ready to book my first Korean Spa experience.  Last month when I was filming a movie in LA the cast was hanging out in holding and talking about massages, spas, scrubs, etc.  The conversation turned to Koreatown-LA.  Apparently you can pay to get scrubbed silly for about an hour and then you are released to immerse yourself into the mineral baths, followed by using the steam rooms, and then the showers.  Everyone walks around naked. If you aren’t comfortable walking around in the buff…..this experience is not for you.  You leave there with skin that is as soft as butter.  

Latina’s skin is very similar to black skin.  We can get “ashy” too.  I go through loads of lotion and it never seems like enough.  My sweetie has commented many times how soft my skin is.  If he only knew how many bottles of lotion I go through to be soft for him.  lol  I’m hopeful that this full body scrub will help in making my body even softer.  Can’t wait!!  Mmmmmmm.  

Selfie time again!! Lol.