An Actor's Story

Daily happenings in the life of an American actress, screenwriter and filmmaker. Auditions, bookings, travels, and tales.

Actually I’m not sure it could go on forever.  Probably not, given our circumstances.  We both need to keep our kids in our lives so that rules out “together forever,”  but…..we can sure enjoy right here, right now.  We are going on a year and a half ……and going strong.  In fact, I feel more in love with him every day….he is that amazing.  I often wonder what our lives would be like if we met a really long time ago.  Would we be attracted to one other, would we have gotten married, would we be soul mates?  I think so.  I think this is someone I could have joined at the hip with and made a life long commitment to, and totally loved it.  But……it didn’t go down that way……and I’m totally cool with it.  Luckily I’m an actress.  I can live out my fantasy life and get paid for it.  Gorgeous men at my disposal and then I get to go home at night…….and get a check.  haha.  But man…….I would give it all up to be his wife.  But……..it ain’t gonna happen………..and I’m completely cool with it. ;)
(isn’t it weird how these pictures pop up on my feed right after I talk to him? lol)  

Actually I’m not sure it could go on forever.  Probably not, given our circumstances.  We both need to keep our kids in our lives so that rules out “together forever,”  but…..we can sure enjoy right here, right now.  We are going on a year and a half ……and going strong.  In fact, I feel more in love with him every day….he is that amazing.  I often wonder what our lives would be like if we met a really long time ago.  Would we be attracted to one other, would we have gotten married, would we be soul mates?  I think so.  I think this is someone I could have joined at the hip with and made a life long commitment to, and totally loved it.  But……it didn’t go down that way……and I’m totally cool with it.  Luckily I’m an actress.  I can live out my fantasy life and get paid for it.  Gorgeous men at my disposal and then I get to go home at night…….and get a check.  haha.  But man…….I would give it all up to be his wife.  But……..it ain’t gonna happen………..and I’m completely cool with it. ;)

(isn’t it weird how these pictures pop up on my feed right after I talk to him? lol)  

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This is why I wear dresses.  :)  lol 
OMG I love this dress!!!  If I walk the red carpet again I would love to have this dress.  It’s funny because I used to send him dresses I thought he might like to see me in (when we were first met.)  And I think he liked that.  I need to start doing that again.  And we need to walk the red carpet together.  Holding hands, and enjoying the moment. ;)  Smooch!!
I think I might have eaten too much pizza, but oh well.  Today was a stressful day so I needed some comfort food.  Plus I’ve been exercising my ass off (actually I have a lot of ass left, but I’m working on it. lol)  
Sometimes I feel like I get mixed signals.  Sometimes I give give give and get nothing in return…….and then sometimes I get everything I asked for.  I guess that is life in general.  I try to roll with the punches but some days I’m better at it than others.  Today was a day to just forget about everything and get from point A to point B.  Tomorrow will be better.  I can hopefully finalize my wardrobe choices with my agents as well as make a plan for episodic season.  Then on to interview/meet up with my potential roommates  (fingers crossed.) In between all of this I need to put in several hours for my day job (telecommuting,) go to a fitness class (two if possible,) and iron a million outfits (so glamourous. lol)  I also have to make many phone calls for my mom regarding her finances, and make a few regarding my own finances.  Since I’ve been so over the top busy I have managed to pile up a good amount of cash (no time to spend,) but rather than feeling like I could buy a Kate Spade ……I feel like I would like to double my money.  Kind of a challenge I’m going to place on myself.  I read  the “Ready for Zero” blog daily and they really get me motivated to save and amass piles of cash.   I don’t really have any debt except for about $80K left on my house.  I keep stalling paying that off, although I could write a check today, but for some reason I have a roadblock with doing that.  I’m just trusting that there is a reason I feel that way so I am just continuing with my monthly mortgage payment and I’m going to concentrate on piling up this cash.  The blog has given me so many ideas for amassing a fortune in the most simple old fashioned ways.  To me it is kind of like a game.  Right now I’m making a list of all of the things I love to do that don’t cost me a cent to do.  It kind of reminds me of when my kids were little.  We truly didn’t have any money other than the money to pay bills, contribute to our 401K/college funds and carve out one Disneyland trip per year.  Just the other day my kids said that their fondest memories of their childhood were when we made homemade play dough, had a picnic right in the middle of our living room, rode our bikes all over our island looking for Bball or hockey pick up games, sitting on the beach wrapped in blankets watching the sunset over San Francisco, setting up the ironing board-draping a blanket-sewing button eyes on socks and having a puppet show.   They felt like the richest kids in the world but they were only rich in love.  The only thing we had to show for our money was a worn out much handled budget book, a cracked open piggy bank, and……..a 401k and college fund accounts that were growing by the minute.  And they knew that I loved them.  You can’t put a price on love!!

I think I might have eaten too much pizza, but oh well.  Today was a stressful day so I needed some comfort food.  Plus I’ve been exercising my ass off (actually I have a lot of ass left, but I’m working on it. lol)  

Sometimes I feel like I get mixed signals.  Sometimes I give give give and get nothing in return…….and then sometimes I get everything I asked for.  I guess that is life in general.  I try to roll with the punches but some days I’m better at it than others.  Today was a day to just forget about everything and get from point A to point B.  Tomorrow will be better.  I can hopefully finalize my wardrobe choices with my agents as well as make a plan for episodic season.  Then on to interview/meet up with my potential roommates  (fingers crossed.) In between all of this I need to put in several hours for my day job (telecommuting,) go to a fitness class (two if possible,) and iron a million outfits (so glamourous. lol)  I also have to make many phone calls for my mom regarding her finances, and make a few regarding my own finances.  Since I’ve been so over the top busy I have managed to pile up a good amount of cash (no time to spend,) but rather than feeling like I could buy a Kate Spade ……I feel like I would like to double my money.  Kind of a challenge I’m going to place on myself.  I read  the “Ready for Zero” blog daily and they really get me motivated to save and amass piles of cash.   I don’t really have any debt except for about $80K left on my house.  I keep stalling paying that off, although I could write a check today, but for some reason I have a roadblock with doing that.  I’m just trusting that there is a reason I feel that way so I am just continuing with my monthly mortgage payment and I’m going to concentrate on piling up this cash.  The blog has given me so many ideas for amassing a fortune in the most simple old fashioned ways.  To me it is kind of like a game.  Right now I’m making a list of all of the things I love to do that don’t cost me a cent to do.  It kind of reminds me of when my kids were little.  We truly didn’t have any money other than the money to pay bills, contribute to our 401K/college funds and carve out one Disneyland trip per year.  Just the other day my kids said that their fondest memories of their childhood were when we made homemade play dough, had a picnic right in the middle of our living room, rode our bikes all over our island looking for Bball or hockey pick up games, sitting on the beach wrapped in blankets watching the sunset over San Francisco, setting up the ironing board-draping a blanket-sewing button eyes on socks and having a puppet show.   They felt like the richest kids in the world but they were only rich in love.  The only thing we had to show for our money was a worn out much handled budget book, a cracked open piggy bank, and……..a 401k and college fund accounts that were growing by the minute.  And they knew that I loved them.  You can’t put a price on love!!

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Actually the sky’s the limit because there are footprints on the moon.  If Neil and Buzz can do it….so can you.  Although Buzz is still pissed that he stopped to take a sip of Tang and Neil jumped out first but………whatever!!


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Drive across the US

Does anyone know how long it takes to drive from California to NYC? If I end up there for a year or more I absolutely have to have Max with me and the thought of putting him in the luggage part of an airplane….I just can’t do that. A certain family member would move with me if it came to that, so we would have two drivers. I’m just wondering if it is possible to get across the nation in about a week?

Know Your Worth

I’m watching a feed on Facebook taking place in a professional voice over group I belong to. Someone asked the question about putting a price on their services for a local commercial, and then asked what they should do if the commercial went national. A few people said to have an agent intervene. I was thinking that perhaps this VO artist didn’t have an agent (which is why he was asking for advice within a forum.) One person advised him to take a “local” fee and be happy. To not ask for anymore if it went national because “repeat” business was very important. I was appalled at that advice and before I could say anything the forum board blew up with people who think like I do. Don’t freaking settle for peanuts!!! Advertising is still all about big bucks. Trust me, they are making hella money and as a talent you need to demand your fair share. And people, this is true with anything in life. Demand what you desire. Demand what you are worth. Don’t short change yourself. If you don’t make it clear that you are “worth” it…..no one will think you are. It is true for business and it is true for relationships. Don’t let anyone…….and I mean anyone…..take you for granted. You have many options. And if people don’t respect you……exercise your options. I’m about to do just that!