An Actor's Story

Daily happenings in the life of an American actress, screenwriter and filmmaker. Auditions, bookings, travels, and tales.

Streamline Distributed Debugging Tool

I was thinking about how I need to “streamline” my life and then this sentence popped up in one of my news feeds.  Yes……I need to streamline…….and debug.  I am truly wayyyyy too busy.  And not everything “busy” contributes to my well being.  I have to trim, cut, and eliminate the excess.  So…..who (person-project) gets cut?

I have thought a lot about this all day.  It isn’t always the obvious.  It is usually something…or someone who takes up too much of my day. (Mostly in thought - which causes my mind and heart to hurt….and be over active.) Yes, I truly need to make the cuts.  I will never stay sane or achieve my goals.  The next few days will be all about “debugging.”  I might truly love you, but ……..I might not be able to keep you in my life.  I hope you understand.   

Dead Reckoning.
Sometimes I feel like I can navigate my life all on my own.  I don’t need anyone.  Leave me alone. Don’t tell me what to do. I’m fine on my own. But for some reason today I woke up vulnerable.  Today I truly need you.  Today everything about life is hard.  I guess tonight I can look at the stars and hope……….for a true dead reckoning.

Dead Reckoning.

Sometimes I feel like I can navigate my life all on my own.  I don’t need anyone.  Leave me alone. Don’t tell me what to do. I’m fine on my own. But for some reason today I woke up vulnerable.  Today I truly need you.  Today everything about life is hard.  I guess tonight I can look at the stars and hope……….for a true dead reckoning.

I know I can’t have you all to myself……….but no one can stop me from loving you. ;)

loves4free:

I’ll be in trouble if you let me go

I know I can’t have you all to myself……….but no one can stop me from loving you. ;)

loves4free:

I’ll be in trouble if you let me go

(via daffysmack)

I can’t stop looking at your pictures sweetie.  You are so adorable and you don’t even know it.  lol  You are so humble, unassuming, confident, and just happy.  I don’t think you have any idea how mesmerizing you are.  You are truly a gorgeous man…….and I’m so glad you are in my life. ;)

I can’t stop looking at your pictures sweetie.  You are so adorable and you don’t even know it.  lol  You are so humble, unassuming, confident, and just happy.  I don’t think you have any idea how mesmerizing you are.  You are truly a gorgeous man…….and I’m so glad you are in my life. ;)

I do have a lot of hair.  Tons of it.  Thick, long and soft.  I know I’m blessed.  But lately I have received tons of extra attention regarding my hair.  When I was at that Hollywood party last weekend and the photographer sent me an e-mail he said “It was so nice photographing you and your hair.”  I thought that sounded so funny.  It was like my hair was a separate person or something.  I showed my kids the e-mail and they laughed and said it sounded like I had to give the hair back or something.  When I was at the Hollywood Q&A panel and they were critiquing our headshots every single person complimented me on my hair.  They said it was gorgeous and that it really was a great “look.”  Perfect strangers have approached me all week to offer compliments.  Today while running I got half way down the block and realized that I forgot my rubber band so I had to run with my hair free flowing.  Halfway thru my run I had to stop to tie my shoe.  A super cute guy who was also running (and looked very familiar,) stopped too and asked “can I touch your hair?”  wtf?  He looked normal but I thought that was a very weird question.  I asked back “what?”  He said “I see you running out here all the time and you have the most beautiful hair.  I’m sure it is soft.  I would love to bury my face in it.”  I immediately said “Uh…….not gonna happen.”  And I ran off.  He seemed normal, up until he said that.  Well…….I guess I will be buying this conditioner by the boat loads.  Even if it attracts strange people, it’s working!!!

I do have a lot of hair.  Tons of it.  Thick, long and soft.  I know I’m blessed.  But lately I have received tons of extra attention regarding my hair.  When I was at that Hollywood party last weekend and the photographer sent me an e-mail he said “It was so nice photographing you and your hair.”  I thought that sounded so funny.  It was like my hair was a separate person or something.  I showed my kids the e-mail and they laughed and said it sounded like I had to give the hair back or something.  When I was at the Hollywood Q&A panel and they were critiquing our headshots every single person complimented me on my hair.  They said it was gorgeous and that it really was a great “look.”  Perfect strangers have approached me all week to offer compliments.  Today while running I got half way down the block and realized that I forgot my rubber band so I had to run with my hair free flowing.  Halfway thru my run I had to stop to tie my shoe.  A super cute guy who was also running (and looked very familiar,) stopped too and asked “can I touch your hair?”  wtf?  He looked normal but I thought that was a very weird question.  I asked back “what?”  He said “I see you running out here all the time and you have the most beautiful hair.  I’m sure it is soft.  I would love to bury my face in it.”  I immediately said “Uh…….not gonna happen.”  And I ran off.  He seemed normal, up until he said that.  Well…….I guess I will be buying this conditioner by the boat loads.  Even if it attracts strange people, it’s working!!!

(Source: katebecketthair)

Well said. And you know who you are!!  Smooch!!

loves4free:

You are my bestfriend, my shoulder to lean on, the one person I know I can count on, you’re the love of my life, you’re my one and only, you’re my everything

Well said. And you know who you are!!  Smooch!!

loves4free:

You are my bestfriend, my shoulder to lean on, the one person I know I can count on, you’re the love of my life, you’re my one and only, you’re my everything

(via daffysmack)

Anonymous asked: I really love reading the updates about your life and what's going on and things like that. I wish you the best of luck.

Thank you so much!!!  It is mostly my diary so it’s funny to think that people would find my life interesting, but I do get a lot of mail from followers saying they like to read my stuff.  That’s really cool.  I wish you the best of luck too!!!

Just got home from running a zillion errands and found a little satin pouch leaning on my front door.  I opened it up and it is a Starbucks gift card, two chocolate covered graham crackers, and a very sweet note from my new neighbor.  She said that she was sorry about the noise (they are installing new hardwood flooring,) and she said the noise would be going on until Saturday.  I’m sure she has no idea that I record in my home studio. lol.  But I thought it was SOOOOO sweet to put these little gifts at my door.  I immediately wrote out a thank you card and gave her my cell.  I did take the opportunity to thank her about the notice regarding the noise because I am a voice over artist.  But I tried to make it sound really chill because overall I am an extremely easy going chill person.  After I did that I get an e-mail from Italy and one from Germany.  Both for VO!!!  haha.  Yikes!  Not sure how I am going to handle that.  It might require me to pay for a studio rental.  In reality I hardly ever have to do that, so it wouldn’t be a problem for me financially but a slight inconvenience.  
The Ford dealership where I got my car called and asked me to come in and look at some new cars.  Jamal (my car - did you know I name my cars?) is only 2 years old, but I have put 45K on my poor Jamal (with all the back and forth to LA, Tahoe, and just the Bay Area in general.)  I freakin love Jamal.  I have never had a car that I love soooo much.  He is sleek, black, polished, has a sunroof, clean inside and out (I keep my cars very clean,) and he has never given me any problems.  He syncs all of my music from my iPhone, tells me when to turn right, lets me know when I need to put in a little more oil or air in the tires.  He is amazing.  I really didn’t have any plans to turn Jamal in for a new model.  But…….those guys at the dealership got me thinking.  Man some amazing new stuff has come in.  Hmmmmm.  Not sure.  At the very minimum they tried to talk me into getting the exact same car except a 2014 with no miles and an new warranty.  Tempting…….I told them I would think about it.  It would be kind of fun to get it before we went to Tahoe.  Anyway….while I was there I took the opportunity to go to a furniture factory store around the corner to check out their sectional sofas.  I think I got my sectional about 7 years ago at JCP and it is definitely worn out.  Plus, when Max was a puppy he chewed on some loose strings and ended up making quite a large hole in the foam.  I have to cover it with a throw.  I think I am due for a new leather sectional.  I found some amazing ones but they weren’t leather.  The guy who works there said he could custom make one for me.  I asked for a discount if I pay cash and he seemed open to the idea.  He sent me home to measure so we can get started.  Yay!  That will make my living room look great!
Ok, now I had better print these scripts and then get out and run my 3 miles.  I’m not in the mood but I’m sticking to this schedule.  I just realized that I haven’t even started to study my monologue for my agent meeting on the 26th!!  I will have to start that tonight after we get home from the birthday dinner.  Just thinking about all of this is making me really tired.  Or……maybe I am experiencing a sugar crash - I just ate one of those chocolate grahams.  




mindbodysync:

I Speak Prada! | via Tumblr on We Heart It - http://weheartit.com/entry/111694344

Just got home from running a zillion errands and found a little satin pouch leaning on my front door.  I opened it up and it is a Starbucks gift card, two chocolate covered graham crackers, and a very sweet note from my new neighbor.  She said that she was sorry about the noise (they are installing new hardwood flooring,) and she said the noise would be going on until Saturday.  I’m sure she has no idea that I record in my home studio. lol.  But I thought it was SOOOOO sweet to put these little gifts at my door.  I immediately wrote out a thank you card and gave her my cell.  I did take the opportunity to thank her about the notice regarding the noise because I am a voice over artist.  But I tried to make it sound really chill because overall I am an extremely easy going chill person.  After I did that I get an e-mail from Italy and one from Germany.  Both for VO!!!  haha.  Yikes!  Not sure how I am going to handle that.  It might require me to pay for a studio rental.  In reality I hardly ever have to do that, so it wouldn’t be a problem for me financially but a slight inconvenience.  

The Ford dealership where I got my car called and asked me to come in and look at some new cars.  Jamal (my car - did you know I name my cars?) is only 2 years old, but I have put 45K on my poor Jamal (with all the back and forth to LA, Tahoe, and just the Bay Area in general.)  I freakin love Jamal.  I have never had a car that I love soooo much.  He is sleek, black, polished, has a sunroof, clean inside and out (I keep my cars very clean,) and he has never given me any problems.  He syncs all of my music from my iPhone, tells me when to turn right, lets me know when I need to put in a little more oil or air in the tires.  He is amazing.  I really didn’t have any plans to turn Jamal in for a new model.  But…….those guys at the dealership got me thinking.  Man some amazing new stuff has come in.  Hmmmmm.  Not sure.  At the very minimum they tried to talk me into getting the exact same car except a 2014 with no miles and an new warranty.  Tempting…….I told them I would think about it.  It would be kind of fun to get it before we went to Tahoe.  Anyway….while I was there I took the opportunity to go to a furniture factory store around the corner to check out their sectional sofas.  I think I got my sectional about 7 years ago at JCP and it is definitely worn out.  Plus, when Max was a puppy he chewed on some loose strings and ended up making quite a large hole in the foam.  I have to cover it with a throw.  I think I am due for a new leather sectional.  I found some amazing ones but they weren’t leather.  The guy who works there said he could custom make one for me.  I asked for a discount if I pay cash and he seemed open to the idea.  He sent me home to measure so we can get started.  Yay!  That will make my living room look great!

Ok, now I had better print these scripts and then get out and run my 3 miles.  I’m not in the mood but I’m sticking to this schedule.  I just realized that I haven’t even started to study my monologue for my agent meeting on the 26th!!  I will have to start that tonight after we get home from the birthday dinner.  Just thinking about all of this is making me really tired.  Or……maybe I am experiencing a sugar crash - I just ate one of those chocolate grahams.  

mindbodysync:

I Speak Prada! | via Tumblr on We Heart It - http://weheartit.com/entry/111694344

Another super cray VO day.  A lot going on in my life.  I keep saying this and I keep thinking that I can pare down my schedule but somehow I keep getting involved in more and more new things.  Regarding VO classes…..I agreed to do two new ones for April because they really address problems I am having.  Every Wednesday (for the entire month of April,) I am working with a tech guru who is taking me slowing but surely thru the necessary steps of sound editing.  Now, I know a lot about sound editing and recording, but this guy is over the top educated in the field and he is truly teaching me so many cool things.  He is taking me up several notches to put me in the arena of the big VO players.  He speaks an entirely different language when it comes to sound engineering (as most sound engineers do,) and it becomes very clear (very quickly) that this guy is incredibly brilliant when it comes to being tech savvy.  Luckily I am kind of the same way, but not nearly as bright when it comes to all of this technical stuff.  I think over 50% of the population would just throw in the towel after about 15 minutes.  I’m glad I’m not in that percentage group.  
My evening class is in person with a top VO talent who is not only incredibly talented……he is funny (in fact hysterical,) personable, a fine teacher, and all around wonderful friend.  He has taught me so much in just two classes.  I would love to continue to study with him.  He’s great!!
I have to record an audition in the morning, take Max to daycare, take my daughter to work, stop at the auto dealership, run 3 miles, pay bills, record some work for my VO tech guy (so he can continue to analyze my sound issues,) help a friend with bookkeeping, meet up with my trainer at 430pm, and then go to dinner with my kids and their Grandpa (it is his birthday tomorrow,) and then……..who knows what else?  I’m unfortunately incredibly busy and I am hoping I can take all of this down a notch.  I don’t want to be this busy.  I would love a little more quality time to myself.  And more time with my sweetie.  I miss him so much.  So much it hurts.

Another super cray VO day.  A lot going on in my life.  I keep saying this and I keep thinking that I can pare down my schedule but somehow I keep getting involved in more and more new things.  Regarding VO classes…..I agreed to do two new ones for April because they really address problems I am having.  Every Wednesday (for the entire month of April,) I am working with a tech guru who is taking me slowing but surely thru the necessary steps of sound editing.  Now, I know a lot about sound editing and recording, but this guy is over the top educated in the field and he is truly teaching me so many cool things.  He is taking me up several notches to put me in the arena of the big VO players.  He speaks an entirely different language when it comes to sound engineering (as most sound engineers do,) and it becomes very clear (very quickly) that this guy is incredibly brilliant when it comes to being tech savvy.  Luckily I am kind of the same way, but not nearly as bright when it comes to all of this technical stuff.  I think over 50% of the population would just throw in the towel after about 15 minutes.  I’m glad I’m not in that percentage group.  

My evening class is in person with a top VO talent who is not only incredibly talented……he is funny (in fact hysterical,) personable, a fine teacher, and all around wonderful friend.  He has taught me so much in just two classes.  I would love to continue to study with him.  He’s great!!

I have to record an audition in the morning, take Max to daycare, take my daughter to work, stop at the auto dealership, run 3 miles, pay bills, record some work for my VO tech guy (so he can continue to analyze my sound issues,) help a friend with bookkeeping, meet up with my trainer at 430pm, and then go to dinner with my kids and their Grandpa (it is his birthday tomorrow,) and then……..who knows what else?  I’m unfortunately incredibly busy and I am hoping I can take all of this down a notch.  I don’t want to be this busy.  I would love a little more quality time to myself.  And more time with my sweetie.  I miss him so much.  So much it hurts.

The other night Max and I were home alone so he cuddled with me and watched his baby movies on YouTube. He kept hearing something coming from the speaker on the side of my laptop. Lol!! He looks so funny watching himself as a puppy. :)